Still don't feel good after one night's sleep, can't feel anything at this moment yet, but I'm afraid to go to work, yes... Afraid to see the place that is filled with so much memories. Happy yet sad at the same moment. Afraid to admit that I am a coward to not say things only when something happens. I hate to regret, but I am regretting now but there is no one to blame except for me. No mood to do anything yet I have a mountain of homework and assignments to finish. I feel like running away from everything right now. But I can't. I can't be a irresponsible person. I hate people that are irresponsible yet I, myself, is acting like one right now. I hate the way I am thinking right now. I truly hate it right now. I need time but I don't know how long. I don't need help because I will rely on whoever that shows concern. I don't wish to be weak, I know I am strong yet I hate to say I am weak. Even with the wind that blows lightly against me I think I will be swept away by it in a seconds. Nothing gets to me. Even music that I enjoy can't bring much joy to me. Even my beloved comics when I read it, I feel sad. I am lifeless now, but I don't hate it. I wish to be alone, don't ask anything. I may feel better tomorrow or I might not.


I am lifeless now, it might help me to get over it... I hope that he will come back to us soon. I will miss you.